Thursday, April 30, 2009

Snow White vs Evil Queen

Sometimes I feel like I am bipolar. There are days where I am fine with what I have. I can live my life in peace with amelo. Its like, I look into a mirror and say, wow I look good for what I been through. Great jobs Docs!

Then there are days where I want to crawl into bed and go to sleep, praying when I wake up this will all be a nightmare and I just have dreamed this past year and 1/2. I look and say OMG who is this person? Scar on my neck and leg. Missing 4 teeth. Ugly smile. I look like Frankenstein, I look like a witch. I know in reality I don't but it's how I see myself on those very dark days, like today.

I'll get over it.


Andreailj said...
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Andreailj said...

Totally me! Somedays I tell my story like yeah it happened but I'm fine, other days I'm all raging and cursing at people that autodestroy them selves when I just want so bad to be normal and healthy and eat without biting my lip, Stupid Amelo I hate you from the bottom of my heart!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience it has helped me so much since I know only 1 person in my country (Panama) that had it and met her for like 5 minutes, is so hard to explain and most people are like you should be thankful you are alive (and trust me I am) but is just not that easy and they have no idea what it feels like.